My pregnancy defiantly hasn't been a cake walk which many of you know. However I am grateful that Lilly is strong and healthy even if it means I suffer physically and mentally for 9 months straight.
I think it is funny how as women, most of us have children but our perspectives are so different. Some women LOVE being pregnant and find all the new things happening to their body amazing.
And to me, I find something new almost everyday that I am a little scared of haha. Pregnancy has always scared me, probably because you have no idea how your body is going to react. Once I realized that I was going to be sick, achy and frustrated most of this time. I kind of accepted it. Okay maybe some days I don't accept it however I have these moments of excitement and think about what Lilly is going to look like, if she is going to have hair (because I think babies look weird without hair), is she going to be like me or like Robbie, really who is she going to be?
Sooner then I know it, I will have her here and having those sleepless nights which I have no idea how I will do. But ladies you keep telling me you just adapt, its natural. Well we will see how natural my instincts are because sleep is pretty natural ;).
Last night was a pretty special moment, I was able to get dinner done and finish a little of Robbie's Valentine's Day gift. Then I went and picked Robbie up at work and we got to eat dinner together and then we played a game. It was just a relaxing night of just us two. Then it hit me to saver these moments because it soon will be three. I then just felt overwhelmed with love, seriously an unconditional love for the man sitting right next to me. I have moment like this almost everyday or at least once a week. Where Robbie surprises me with who he is, he shows me in such little ways of how great of a person he is. His desire for fairness, truth and right, hard work, unconditional love, forgiveness, and even the things that frustrate him, I fall in love with. I have learned that our strengths and weaknesses make us individuals. I am not perfect and Robbie is not perfect but I feel that our love for each other is perfect because it is ever changing and we realize we are both not perfect. We learn, and we grow together and I wouldn't change that for anything.
I just feel grateful to have someone as understanding as Robbie Talbert he makes life way more fun and I am grateful for Lilly to have such an amazing man as a father. Just hearing Robbie pray for her and me melts my heart, or when he comes home and rubs my belly to say hi to Lilly, or when he tries to catch her kicking and hitting me. You just don't think your capacity to love could grow any more then it has but it does and I think it helps me to have a small glimpse of how much our Heavenly Father loves each and everyone of us.
Well I hope you all have a
Happy Valentine's Day
